After years of having fun wid friends, their came a phase where life suddenly came to a stand still… We 3 got scattered round the globe and to make it worse, communication dropped after some time.
My first abroad trip was a Dream come true on professional front ,but personal life had messed up big time …Had brought back lot of negativity with me and with the absence of my 2 child hood friends , I felt helpless. Gradually I realized, the days have gone to expect your friends always by your side. Its well Justified…Soon we 3 gonna enter a phase of life with absolutely different priorities …May be Personal life. & Professional life will have to take a back seat…
Now with lot of time, and not much to do, apart from thinking & day dreaming (KHAYALI PULAV) I got frustrated with lot of open ended personal questions floating around. I had answers for none … Finally I tried to Let Go and decided to give my self a Breather….
I knew getting myself involved in general activities might be a way to make it easy…
To confess, I had never given any time or importance to my family …friends were always a priority and on top of my list…So thought, it’s high time to gel up with them... Trust me.. life became all the more sadistic…They had nothing to discuss apart from marriage….
The stepping stone of “General Life” din give me much comfort. My past life was so full of energy …Over the weekend I just had to drop at my friends place and go with the flow….But things had changed now; I literally use to think of ways to keep my self occupied… On the other hand I found my friends busy with Career and new people … thus having a meaning full life…They seemed to be happy …I felt I was going No where and even this new approach was no fun for me …
With time I tried my best to survive and there came the realization of “Individuality”. IT WAS MISSING. At one point I felt, I never had maintained it… No ones fault …I am a highly adaptive human and hence I give myself a Benefit of doubt …I actually enjoyed any thing and everything …Never had a personal choice …But the fact is with people whom you love from core of your heart and enjoy every moment with them … It was and is still difficult for me to have a personal choice …
I strongly feel it’s very important to maintain your individuality for reasons which I can’t explain in words….It’s a must to posses when dealing with outside world…If I'm going to sing like someone else, then I don't need to sing at all.”
But I can’t deny that there are few people in my life where this aspect of life is not required and doesn’t work at all. :)))
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